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NaNoWriMo 2016: Final Recap

You’ve got no idea of how hard it is to start writing again today, December 1st. As always, NaNoWriMo finishes and Thank Gackt Is Over and all that. However, this year has been horrible. To the point that I’m actually considering that this should be the last NaNo I attempt.

My first idea was trying to do the 50,000 words in a day, in the whole 24 hours of the first day. Unfortunately that was tampered due to the previous night being completely blank due to insomnia. No matter how much chocolate I ate or coke I drank, it would not work.

On the first day I was feeling not to well, but as it is a national holiday where I live, I puckered up 30,000 words. I decided that I wanted to do ‘diffuse writing’ and just grab a few writing minutes where I could, so there is no that much time following afterwards.

I then had a trip (which I don’t regret at all) over the weekend and most of my writing was done on a train. I reached 50,000 on the sixth, knowing that I was nowhere close to anything, so I continued.

Major depressive crisis hit on Tuesday 8th, and all the fun vanished. In hindsight, I should have stopped there. I should have just stopped the whole bloody thing, but no. I had made a decision, and I had to fulfil the goal because I’m that idiot. So I kept writing at a rate of about 2000 words a day to try to get nowhere.

Note to self. Next year, stop. Or better yet, next year maybe own up that you can’t get to everything and don’t bite more than you can chew. Maybe give in to reality, and don’t start the bloody thing, because this year you did not even have fun.

In the end, there were 105501 words. I’m not even writing the comma because the major high was getting a weird palindrome number over there. Even if I could have written more yesterday.

I feel that this was the worst NaNo ever. There has been no rush whatsoever, just relief that it is over. So I’ve learnt that NaNo is not the best place for creative experiments, it just gets stressy and difficult – unlike what I was expecting, that having a bunch of different subplots could get me slide from one to another if anything got too hard to write, or if I got stuck.

One of the main problems has been the supposed main character. He is bland, pale and he is not attractive at all. he is not fun to write, and I’m thinking if I can go back and rewrite things so I can kill him off. He claims that he is in shock and not reacting correctly though <.<. The rest of the subplots has been developing quite well. Keith became much stronger a character than I thought he would (and his plot twist is going to be very useful), and my kitsune turned out to be a racist idiot, but I hope I can turn her around.

The most interesting NaNoism has been my calling the Giants’ Causeway “Giants’ Castaway” three times in a row, so not even that.

All in all, I don’t feel like a winner. I think that it is because I still have so much to do that I don’t have the story anywhere close to wrapped, and that is a first. even when I’ve done Shourai “books” I’ve always gotten what I wanted to write in. Not this time.

Or maybe it’s my lack of mood and energy talking, because sheesh that sound dramatic as woah. Don’t get me wrong, it was not horrible or anything, it just did not feel as achieving, creativity-wise, as other years. I think, however that it has more to do with the format of what I am writing rather than the actual number of works.

Not sure. I bring you here some graphs that show that no, this was not the worst NaNo ever, it was actually third best. So no need to feel bad.

Hereon the graphs:

  • First day:

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  • Win day:

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  • Final 2016 Graphs:

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  • Comparison with other years (bright blue is this year, because for some reason the legend only printed once):
    • Daily wordcount (DWC) per year: just how many words were written each year on each day.
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    • Cumulative wordcount (CWC) per year: this shows the total novel wordcount each day of the month.

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    • Pile-up of Daily word count (DWC): This graph shows how many words I wrote per day each year one on top of the other so it shows the combined total wordcount per day.

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    • Pile-up: Cumulative wordcount (CWC). This shows the evolution and the total wordcount each year for all the years.

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Live and learn

I built this character table the other day – and posted it before. Afterwards, I looked at it again and I thought about a few things. One of them is OMG I’m old. Some of the characters in Parallel have been in my head for 20 years now, and that is a sobering thought. Then I started thinking about them.

In the original story, Madiq was a high priest in ancient Egypt – while pretty much sure that said gods did not exist. He got turned into a vampire himself by one of the first vampires, and continued to serve in the Queen and King’s palace. Ydemb Arā was a general in the army that would later become a vampire as a reward for his bravery and commitment. Later on, Ydemb Arā would spawn.

But that was 20 years ago and I was a teenager then. Now, as I work on “rebooting” their story, I see that they have changed, and yet they have not – I always think about Ydemb Arā when I walk into any kind of gothic building. Maybe they have grown. They have always been in the back of my mind, the three of them, along with some other vampires from their world.

So I turn thoughts in my mind. Probably Ydemb Arā and Madiq are my first gay couple ever, the first I considered in my life. But a long time has passed since I started wondering about how two guys’ dynamics could work – and probably Anne Rice’s Interview with a Vampire and The Vampire Lestat influenced the way they interacted. Now, looking back, twenty years and a lot of life experience later, I can do a more complex analysis of them, and how they have changed in my mind.

Madiq is a former slave. He was castrated shortly after reaching adulthood, thus becoming a eunuch. Being turned into a vampire gave him a new dimension of relationships that did not necessarily go through sex. Or turned around the idea of vampire sex, which involves blood and death rather than sexual hormones and organs. Thus, I have gathered that Madiq is what we would call pansexual nowadays. Furthermore, he would be someone without much interest to commit to a long–lasting relationship. From a slave to be sacrificed to the gods, Madiq became a high priest after being turned into a vampire and lived in court.

Ydemb Arā, on the other hand, is mostly heterosexual. His relationship with Madiq is born from obsession, and I am not that sure of how healthy their interactions are. Ydemb Arā met Madiq when the latter was already a vampire, so their power dynamics are imbalanced – Madiq started as a slave and had already outlived his generation as a vampire when Ydemb Arā was born. Ydemb Arā belonged to a rich, military family and logically chose the army career. He was already a general when he was assigned to serve in the Palace, not to protect the Queen and King but the High Priest Madiq. However, at this point Madiq was already pretty much immortal, so it was most pretence than anything else. This is what triggered that part of Ydemb Arā that would later “fall in love” with Madiq. Ydemb Arā would later be chosen by the Queen to become one of the first generation vampires, but this did not equalise the imbalance between Priest and General

For Madiq, vampire Ydemb Arā was not too different from what the general had been. He still considered himself above the other, but he would eventually start warming up to him – even if Ydemb Arā did not really go for a romantic relationship. However, Madiq regularly left Ydemb Arā to wander the world and be alone. During this time, Ydemb Arā’s obsession led him to pursue mortals who reminded him of Madiq. Only one of these would survive the creation process – Idol.

Idol (who is not on the Parallel character table as he is not a main character) had originally a love story, but somehow it never felt right. I was not sure why but it would just not work. Now I have it all figured out – not every character needs a romantic arc, and not every character has an “average” sexuality (read “average” as “the ones that you find most represented in fiction”). The reason why Idol’s romantic arc never worked was that it was not destined to work. Idol is asexual, and thus my teenage attempts to have him in an actual “average” relationship blew up on my face. Sorry Idol, I know better now.

So I’ve learnt about the sexuality spectrum, and what I am learning now is the gender spectrum. I know that I’ve got a transgender character but I don’t know how to present that. In the end, it does not count if it is not “out” does it? I’ll have to wing it somehow, I guess.

NaNo’16 Plan: Final Paralell Timeline (October 25th)

Well, here it is, plot twist aside, we’ve got a one-liner timeline of Parallel. As you can see there are ten colours and they represent the (urgh) ten story lines that should come together to make a whole. Hopefully because I have got no physical time for the middle step.

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There are 19 characters, out of which, somehow there are 9 male, 9 female and a sexless one, from different ethnicities, cultures and such. I’m a bit on the overwhelmed side, but hey. No guts, no glory.

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And I still have Yuma around, whom I’m not sure what to do about… Yeah, I’ll tell you about Yuma some other day… Maybe in December…

NaNoWriMo 2016 Prep: Three pictures

Three thousand words? I wish. Here’s how the prep is going at the moment. Nine stories in one developing in parallel but mixing at points. Possibly about 12 points of view. We’ll see.
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Timeline:
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